Bittersweet memories :)

I think your stuck.

2012-01-28T01:56:00.000+08:00

Its one in the morning, and Im filling up my sleeping hours by just writing this blog post.
Just thought I'd give write a little something because I don't think I'll be able to make enough time for my blog after this, since I've got exams coming up. :p

But who knows. I may write everyday as well! :)
Depends though.

Out of a sudden, I don't feel as if I want to study as hard, or even touch any of my books this summer.

I'm really home-sick you know?
And yes, this is so not the time to do this, because its such an important year for me.
Well and next year too :(

And I dont even know if I'm going to do well next year because I'll be home for good, in college and i'd probably be going out everyday. Hehehehe. :)
And yes, save me.

I actually don't understand this whole idea of studying. I think its just plain-stupid.
I think, theres just so much more to life, than just studying you know?
Its not all about getting to the best universities in the world, or being a top student in your class or anything.
It dies off, eventually.
And I don't know about any of you, but to me, theres just so much more to life than those things.

I'm not saying, I wanna drop out of school or anything, but I can't study all the time right?
I can go crazy actually. And get more depressed and stressed out and all.
Its just so tiring, you know?
I have a life too.

And my life doesn't revolve all around books. I'm starting to freak out like a mad cow, though.

These insecurities and thoughts that I won't do well.
Or maybe my intentions of not even bothering to do well this year.

I don't know lah. Its so confusing.

Anyways, how have you guys been? :)
I've been really great, but i've been having classes almost everyday and I've been out almost everyday and i'm so exhausted to the max.
I need my energy booster, back. I fall asleep wherever I go, really.
In the car, on the sofa, at a friends place, in the cinemas :/
Plus I'm going out tomorrow with Naomi.

Its called Shopping Therapy. :)
Hahahahahahha. I need to release stress and :p
I reckon I'd be more tired, because I need to wake up early too! But i'm excited:)

Tonight, I went over to Shakey's place for a pool party and now my hair smells like smelly chlorine water. Got forced into the pool as usual. Heh heh. :)
But it was fun though. and I managed to get some red packets so I gotta do some saving up!
Well, I am, bit by bit.

I feel so home-sick at the moment. Daddy even took out the tv from my room and said he'll replace it with another one but still. my room feels so empty now. Even with my sofa gone.
Well my room feels so much bigger now, but everything is leaving its place one, by one!
Now, whats next?
Moving everything out of my room?
Move out? :(

Im in a really bad mood. Sigh.
Theres so much curse words going through my mind at the moment.
I want to stay here, but I can't. This is so ~~shit~~.

After all, I'm a girl right?
I don't like being so far away from home.

It makes me sad and I don't like being far away from my family and friends.

Don't get me wrong though. You'll experience one of the best things in your life in boarding.
I mean sometimes its fun, sometimes it gets a little lonely too, right?

Don't you even understand that?

Its my last year, in St Hildas though. Daddy said, I might just leave after my exams too. :/
So probably around october or latest december lah. :(

Thats like nine months away. Thats such a long time. For me.

I'd be crying myself to sleep every night.
Why does God make it so hard for me?

2012-01-27T00:38:00.000+08:00

I'm starting to think and ask myself.

If I loved you so much?
I realized, maybe she loved you more.

2012-01-23T21:29:00.000+08:00

5th attempt. A lot better than the last isn't it?

2012-01-23T15:51:00.000+08:00

I slept at 3 in the morning last night.
I couldn't sleep.
I'm on my period.

I'm tired.

I'm cranky.

I just cried.

Now, its like my whole world is collapsing under my feet.

2012-01-23T01:00:00.000+08:00

1st attempt. - Last week, my batter was over-mixed.
2nd attempt - Over-mixed again . Hehe.
3rd attempt (today) - My batter was too stiff. I under-did the batter. Hmpfth.

Tomorrow shall be my 4th attempt. K, going to need this.

Focus, sarah :P

Well you do know that macarons are highly temperamentle, sensitive and can cause severe depression to the one making them, right? :P

Imagine a women having her PMS, well, take 10 women and you get your macarons.

Well this. I totally agree with Farhanah! :)

2012-01-22T17:39:00.000+08:00

TADA! :)

Okay, super happy now.

3rd attempt. I'm getting better at this.

Just need to make sure the dough isn't too stiff, at the next attempt.

Leaving them to dry, for a few hours.

Going off to seremban in a bit.

Then coming back and putting them in the oven.

tut.tut.

2012-01-21T22:05:00.001+08:00

The weekends are here, and I hoping for a bliss of a weekend. :)

So, thumbs up for the coming weekend, everyone and the chinese new year holidays of course! (Y)

Hehe, can't wait to get my little red packets from all my aunties and uncles :P
How sneaky am I right? :(

Sigh. I'm in a desperate need of money at the moment and I need to start selling those babies (if you know what I mean) as soon as possible. :(

I'm postponing this little macaron sale, to the end of the year because this year is such a critical year for me and I really need to focus on my studies so I don't think I'll be able to do my baking, too much.

And yes, of course, I need to master the recipe and experiment with more flavours.

Lets just say I'm progressing, okay? :*

And I'm getting better, every time I'm trying.

So I'm aiming for the end of this year or early 2013?
Was thinking of selling them through friends and family members and probably online?

What do you think?

It'll be my small little business.

And maybe something where I can earn a little bit of money to pay papa and mama back? :)

What do you think?

And maybe if this little business works out really well, then maybe I could start thinking of opening up a little macaron and meringue shop?

Well, it'll be like a little pastry shop.
Sigh. I need to start saving for this.

2012-01-20T15:29:00.000+08:00

The blur picture, that seemed to work.

I love apple pies!

2012-01-20T00:04:00.000+08:00

If you notice something with the status, I'm currently craving for some mac'donalds apple pies at the moment. :( lapar.

Anyways, I've been super de-motivated lately and I have no idea why.
I really need inspiration.

Someone, inspire me?

Whose your baby daddy? -Jamie-

2012-01-19T23:47:00.001+08:00

Hi meet Jamie. :)

2012-01-16T18:57:00.004+08:00

Since, I couldn't bake my macarons today,

Busy painting frames. cardboard frames. getting a little creative over here! :)

Click picture, to enlarge!

Ps : check out my very first GIF, on http://blissfulweekends.tumblr.com/ xx

2012-01-16T16:34:00.002+08:00

I am so annoyed right now -.- to the max. stop being so selfish la. i've things to do. because of that i can't even bake my macarons today -.-ish.

no title.

2012-01-15T01:12:00.002+08:00

Hehe hello, my sexy little human beings.

How is the weekend so far?

I've been so tired lately because I've been up and about every single day.

Oooh. And may I just state that I got lucky with my photo up here! :)

Heheh. I managed to get my very own white wall with the perfect balance of light over the whole picture.

Pretty cool huh?

I guess I've learnt a few things, from experimenting with my DSLR and speed lights. :)

It took me quite a while though. It was so frustrating. Hmpfth!

Plus it was just a little test shot anyways. Didn't realize it would come out with really sharp and really nice lighting. Hehe. So please excuse, my boring photo because I was doing absolutely nothing in the photo except covering my little eyes. :D

So all this week, i've just been spending time doing my add math work and yes I've been so rajin :')
So pelik, right?

Anyways, my oven has finally arrived! :)

And oh gosh, its really really really heavy. :(

Anyways, I'm so excited for my little macaron-bake on monday! :)
Do you know how close it is?

I can almost feel it. :P Hahahahahgaahahgagaga.

And not only that, I'm holding a macaron tasting session.

Giving them out to friends, family members etc to give their opinion on it.

Maybe just a head-start before selling them and setting the price?

voila.

2012-01-12T18:42:00.003+08:00

I'm finally baking my macarons on Monday. Hehehe. :)

Can't wait to see how it turns out. :P

So, I attended the macaron class at Natalie Gourmet Studio this week and it was such an unforgettable experience! :)

For those who are new to this, it is located at Solaris Dutamas.

The class started around 10 o'clock in the morning and it started with Natalie giving us three recipe sheets to keep for ourselves which were Raspberry, Chocolate and Salted Caramel macarons! :)

Natalie then started talking about the DO's and DON'Ts of making macarons, why she uses the italian meringue method instead of the french meringue method, where to get all the baking utensils and ingredients and why macarons crack so easily!

Plus I didn't know you had to prepare at least five day in advanced before making those macaron shells.

After the little macaron talk, Natalie started showing us how to make the macarons from step 1, which was processing the almond ground and icing sugar before sieving it until piping them macarons onto a baking paper.

Natalie, started off with the raspberry macarons herself, giving us tips on how the texture of the batter has to be smooth, shiny and it has to create a ribbon effect and how you shouldn't over-do the mixing etc.

So much concentration needed for piping these macarons!

How beautiful, isn't it?

After Natalie finished piping the raspberry macarons onto the baking paper, we left it to cool down for around an hour or so.

And moved on to the caramel salted macarons and lastly the chocolate macarons.
This time, me and the other girls/ladies grouped together to make these last two macaron shells ourselves since we've already observed Natalie, make the raspberry macarons. And Natalie advised it would be good for us to do it ourselves during the second round, so we wouldn't forget.

So, all of us got a good dose, of doing it twice during class which was really great. :)

Finally moving on to piping the Salted Caramal Macarons.

Everyone got a chance to pipe the macarons onto the baking paper,

Salted Caramel Macarons.
Right before putting it into the oven, to bake.

Chocolate Macarons. Looks so yummy.

Like I said, every one got a chance to pipe the macarons and I waited for my favourite flavour, which were the chocolate macarons and I got the chance to pipe them onto the baking paper ! :)

Natalie insisted that everyone HAD to have a go at piping the macarons.

Mesmerizing, issn't it?

Soon, after my digital camera started to run out of battery. Such wrong timing. Cause I wanted to take pictures of us piping the fillings onto the macarons. oh wells.

I had such an exciting time in her class the other day and seriously can't wait to get a grip on baking them. I've got my ingredients ready stored in the fridge and I'm baking these babies on Monday.

As for those who would like to learn, I highly recommend you to attend her class. Its RM220, by the way. She's a really sweet person and really shares all her secrets and techniques on making these little french pastries which I simply adore. And she's french too! :)

I like how she emphasis-ed deeply on how its all about the taste and the quality of the macarons and the colour of the macarons must really match the taste to enhance the flavour.

It made me understand why her macarons were RM 4.40 per piece!

She uses high quality ingredients and some of her ingredients are even imported from France tauuu.

I had such a great day. Hehehehehhe. :)

It seemed so possible to make these babies in Natalie's kitchen, I wonder if its possible in mine.

If I fail, I shall, be depressed for a long taime.

2012-01-10T08:35:00.002+08:00

I'm off to my very first macaron class! :)
Goodbye.

2012-01-08T22:21:00.003+08:00

Hello! How are all of you doing? :)
I'm doing fine. My macaron classes are just about in two days.
I'm excited lah. Hehe.

Will update you soon, on how it goes? :)

And not to mention I've not had classes for the past 6 months. I think I've been enjoying my holidays way too much.
Physics and math tuition tomorrow. Save me?
Malas, to the bones. Tapi, I even though I malas. I tetap rajin tauuu. :P
Study last minute = my masterplan.

Hahahahahhahaha :)

I guess, I'd just always have to cram up so many things in my head two or three nights before the exams.
But it does work. :P

Sometimes.

Oh goodness, me. I'm such a bad influence. >:(
If your reading this, please don't pick up my habit. Because it is a pain.

Anyways, what did you guys do today?

I've been reading some of the pages in my diary.
And now I'm so phobic on how I'm so scared that someones going to find my diary and read it.
I've hid it in several different places in my room!
But. my house is not the safest place. :(
*snifffffff

I'm picking up my new Canon E0S 550D DSLR camera tomorrow.
New camera, tripod and lens.

Shall I get speed lights too? :)

Ps : Was looking through. weheartit.com fashion photographs and look what i found?
I have the same pair of laced shorts! :) how lovely.
Got them from perth. Beautiful, aren't they?

2012-01-08T13:25:00.002+08:00

Have been ditching my dear camera, lately. oh wells.

2012-01-07T23:25:00.002+08:00

Do you know that I'm afraid of speeding cars and being in one?
Do you know that I'm afraid of flying due to turbulences in the air?

Do you know that I'm allergic to seafood?

Do you know that, it takes me forever to forget things?

If you never knew that, then now you know.

------------------------------------- Goodbye ------------------------------------

This.

2012-01-07T01:13:00.002+08:00

I have an issue with deciding.

2012-01-07T00:19:00.005+08:00

Q :- Whats the difference between pork chop and pea soup?
A :- Anybody can chop pork but nobody can pee soup.

Hehehehehehehehehe. :)
Please laugh. I hope you did. Because I'm trying my very best to be funny here.

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Here I am sitting down, resembling my thoughts and thinking abouut what I'm going to do.

These last two years are the most important years of my life.

And If I screw this up, i'm going to screw up my future. :(

And now I feel so pressurized with everything my family members are asking me.

Its always the big question.

What course are you thinking of doing when you enter uni?

To me, its a killer question. Because I'm not sure. Heh.

Its either culinary arts or something to do with the science stream.

I really wish I could go back to my form 1 days. Dahlah tak payah study so hard kan?
Hehehehehhehehee. :) and I can have fun all the time kot.

So, if you guys got the news where I'm coming back to malaysia and continuing my studies here.
The fact is. I was. But I'm not going to anymore.

I was supposed to come back and study in malaysia but I got a scholarship back there.
And this scholarship is going to fund me for the full 2 years. Year 11 and Year 12.
Its not about me or whatsoever.
I mean, Its not that I want to turn it down or anything right?
I just want to be home. Thats all I ask for. One thing.
But I can't.
Because, its an opportunity for me, isn't it?
Isn't that what everyone says?

I'm a year 11 this year, which means workload is going to be as heavy as anything.
And year 11s only have 3 terms, and then we've to sit for our exams dah in august. :(
And by september this year, I'll be a year 12 already.
Looking at the year 12s last year studying so hard, I think I may just die. :(
So cepat right?

God will give me strength and the patience this year right?
Its going to be an exhausting year for me and I really need it. :(

Year 11 - 0'Levels and the lepas tu,
Year 12 - A'Levels

I've been getting so much questions on this year 11 and year 12 thingy. So I'll just get straight to the point. Year 11 is just about the same as form 5. And then year 12 is actually form 6/college.

And then after that I go straight into university dah. :)

Or shall I come back and do college at Taylor's next year?
Maybe I won't. Maybe i'll just stay in perth. :)

Since, the scholarship is till end of year 12. Sigh.

Tapi, I have my senior dance this year. Hehehehehe. And lepas tu, year 12, I have a ball. :)
I don't know who I'm going to bring yet, but at the moment I'm thinking of going solo.

Lets just say, I don't have a date and I don't intend to find a date.

But I guess its not that bad and all. Not to mention Year 11s have so much privileges now. :)
Our phones don't get confiscated in boarding, we can sleep anytime we want. :)
We can go on beach leave and shopping leave on weekends. Saturdays and Sundays.
Hehe, such freedom dah. :) I'm so happy actually that i don't find the need to fret so much.
I mean, who knew I'd be going back there right?

I mean, I'm so happy that I'm going back but at the same time i'm a quite tad bit sad.
Because I'm going to miss my bed and all the lovely people of Malaysia. :(
And papa and mama. :( sigh. *sniffles *biffles.

Hopefully, this year I'll be able to experience more things and learn more things in life.

And not being afraid to risk anything.

And I'm sure God will always be there for me, whenever I need him kan? :(
Because I really need him more than anything.

Wish me luck, okay?

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Today was such a lazy day I tell you! :) I'm so tired of writing and all and i'm sorry if you find any grammatical errors in my blog post today because I'm so sleepy and I'm actually typing in a rush.

So, today I was home alone. Again.
Was thinking of experimenting on my macarons again, but just realized my new oven hasn't arrived yet and I'm still waiting. And today was such a lazy day for me because I just slept late and ate a&w and just watched tv like a fat kid. :*

But it was rather nice, having the house all to myself kot. :) It was so quiet. Too quiet actually.
But I enjoyed myself, I guess? :)

And today after dinner, mama asked me to go shopping with her tomorrow :D

Dah lame dah, mama tak ask macam tu. :)
Its been years since I've actually bonded with mama. I've never really gotten time to spend with her or to get to know her better. The last time I recalled spending time with her was when I was 11.
Sigh. So long ago.

Twas thinking of having lunch with the girlfriends after school sometime next week? :)
If your reading this. Please, text me. Thanks. :*

I was talking to a friend of mine today. And we were talking about boys and some sort. You know, just that little cheesy little talk, that all of us girls do once in a while right? :) And what she said. I totally agree.

"Yes, the truth that women/ girls had to deal with man/boys yg mmg selfish. this is true. lelaki, sarah .lelaki mmg akan buat org tertunggu tunggu, bagi harapan banyak2 . itu memang lelaki and yup mmg susah nak faham lelaki ni.

kadang2 diaorg tak serious pun dgn kita, thay just need us when they'd nothing to do. bored. lonely, or tiba2 teringat. tu je. mmg sikap diaorg mcm tu. most of them lah. diaorg tak betul2 guna kan mind dorg ttg apa org lain rasa. kalau diaorg betul2 nak ambil serious, baru diaorg usaha. tp lelaki selalu talk cheap. tak ada bukti, tak ada usaha & tindakan.

& & bila dia layan you biasa2 or nak tak nak sahaja, means dia tak serious dan malas nak usaha betul2. mungkin diaorg sayang, tp diaorg tak nak ada cmmitment and nak enjoy je. means enjoy tak ingat dunia, buat sesuka hati tanpa fikir org lain as long as thier happy."

Anyways, life has been pretty decent for me. I'm still so hyped out for my macaron and meringue shop. Like I said, just give me a few more years. :) I need to find the right place and get all my recipes together.
And maybe we could all brainstorm some ideas for the name of the shop, aye? ;)

This is one long post. Dahlah boring sangat nak read almost one whole page.
Sorry to bore you.

Goodnight! :)

Ps : I've added a new song, into my playlist. Listen to ittttt. :) I'm absolutely in love with that song at the moment. :) Tapi, turn up the volume tau. because its pretty soft. :)

lets just sum, it up.

2012-01-05T23:09:00.002+08:00

I'm in a desperate need of DVD's at the moment. Couldn't care less but to watch cheesy movies all night. :)
Thumbs up, for that? :)

So I'd thought I'd just do a little bit of bragging, before I move on.

I miss my old, form 1 days. When I was still in high school and just jumped from a twelve year old to a thirteen year old. I swear, that was the moment I could do anything I WANT. :D

I was the naughtiest kid in class, noisiest and always seeking attention.

I think I drove all my teachers crazy. Heheh.
okay. Let me just rephrase that. I drove my teachers crazy but they still loved me. :P

I was so naughty, now when I think about it. I used to run around in class like a maniac -.-

And cause so much noise. It was so fun lah.

I feel so old thinking about how I'm turning seventeen this year.

I was talking to a friend of mine today and that person was like : Memang best kan being the youngest?

And I was like, memang besttt. So manja, right? :P

I mean, its not that. I just want to stay Daddy's girl forever and ever and ever. :(

But its so not possible right? :(

Anyways, today was such a good day. It would be so much nicer to have more days like theseee. :)
I woke up today, had lunch with papa and all, then stayed home and did my math. Not to mention I'm almost finished with my whole booklet of math, which makes me so relieved! and then lepas tu, I made myself some food and then had dinner with mama since Papa went off to Ipoh.

And watched tv with mama after dinner.

It was such a good day. I feel so happy. Weird, isn't it?

Oh and did I tell you guys, my macaron classes are just around the corner! :)

I'm so excited.

Everyday I am one step closer, to this little macaron and meringue shop of mine!

I'm so glad, I've gotten Annatasha's blessing for it because she is opening a french pattisserie cafe soon and I just wanted to make sure she was okay with my idea too. :)

Kudos, to such a great day. :*

Will be going over to seremban with the family to look after my grandmother this weekend. She is really ill and I'm really hoping she gets better. Sigh.

2012-01-04T13:11:00.000+08:00

I made my beds this morning. #Budak baik. :)

Well, I do it every day now, its creepy. Kudos to boarding school rules! :)

fried brain cells.

2012-01-04T00:05:00.002+08:00

I've been so tired lately that its making me feel so stressed out.

I get so tired at everything, really.

And not only that, I've been getting my regular 8 hours of sleep on a daily basis.

Yet. I'm tired.

Just look at the sillyness! Such madness. I'm infesting into some monster.

thumbs up, for a better night? :)

me, and my bun. so unnoticeable. sigh.

Oh dear lord.

There we go again.

Heheh.

And a few weeks ago, I was.........more fresh, healthier, less tired etc.......
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WHEN I WAS A HEALTHY YOUNG HUMAN BEING.

CAN YOU SEE THE DIFFERENCE? :(

I think i'm dying.

2012-01-03T00:28:00.001+08:00

Times I miss, from prep time, in boarding school.

I had such a tiring weekend and I just want to sit down and brag about the whole weekend.

Maybe I'm just not getting enough sleep.

I couldn't be more pissified than this. It makes me so mad.

My head has been spinning round and round and round. And every time I walk I always feel dizzy.

Dah lah, I took so much panadol. -.-

Its been two days. I'm so sick of this.

Dear God, please give me strength and please make me feel better.

I'm sorry.

2011-12-30T22:26:00.003+08:00

" It's suspended there to remind us before we pop the champagne and celebrate the new year, to stop and reflect on the year that has gone by. To remember both our triumphs and our mis-steps, our promises made and broken. The times we opened ourselves up to great adventures or closed ourselves down for fear of getting hurt coz that is what new years is all about- getting another chance. For me, New Year's Eve is getting a second chance to forgive, to do better, to do more, to give more, to love more. And stop worrying about what if and start embracing what would be. So when that ball drops at midnight and it will drop, so let's remember to be nice to each other, kind to each other. And not just tonight but all year long. "

2011-12-30T19:54:00.001+08:00

Its just me, a plain top and a pair of skinny jeans.

2012.

2011-12-29T22:58:00.002+08:00

Hehe, hey guys! :)

Just watched Dear John for the 3764767634 time. Heheh. My favourite movie kot. :)

And I just added one of the songs, from the movie to my blog. Heheheheh. :)
You better like it tauuu. Cause it took me a while, to do it.

2011 is almost over and how was your year?

Mine was a ~~hell of a ride~~. Oh yes, trust me when I say that.

I have nothing to write about, so I'd just figured I'll babble out nonsense.

Have you guys made your New Year's Resolutions yet?

Cause, I have. Nyehehehehehehehe. and the list goes on, so don't bother, I'll just keep it to myself.

Anyways, since the year is almost over, I'd firstly like to apologize if I've ever hurt anyone in any way or whether I have said something that might have hurt someone or anything and I wanna tell them that I'm sorry, because its so not me. I don't like hurting people. And to those out there who were mean to me and has hurt me before, I forgive you. :)

I mean, life is all about making mistakes and trying to be a better person and all and I totally get it. :)

I'm not a person who holds grudges against anyone, to be honest. Heh

I'm more of a sofffftie :> well, your not allowed to mess with me though!

Coz, you will not like it when I'm angry. :p

I guess, its just one of these cheesy life experiences. Heheh.

I am so grateful to God because he has given me everything, throughout this 16 years of my life and has given me, family and friends who love me more than anything.

Thats more than enough, in my life at the moment. :D

And for 2012, no matter how ~~shitty~~ your going to be, i'm so ready for your challenges.

Its a never-ending journey, honey.

Lets bring out the best in 2012 :) I'm ready, for more surprises! hehehehe. :)

BRING IT. (Y)

Ps : I see the pages of my diary, filling up! :)

Coz tonight, its just me and my dreams keeping, me alive.

2011-12-29T19:57:00.001+08:00

So, I was bbm-ing Naomi today, and I've missed her so much!

Well, yeah so we were talking about my little macaron and meringue shop and stuff.
And collaborating ideas on how we're going to do it, and I'm so pumped. Heheheh :)

At least, someone doesn't think I'm crazy.

Well, at least we're getting somewhere. A head start guys? ;)
I'm going to need a lot of support for this (Y)

Yet, I'm so excited. Heh.

small kid. big dreams.

2011-12-28T20:31:00.005+08:00

Well, this. I have to write.
Because I feel so happy, right now. :) Hewhewhew.

Well, I made a Christmas Cake last month in Perth during one of my classes.

It was a fruit cake, covered in icing with decorations on it and that baby, was 3kg.

I, being myself, brought all the way onto the plane, considering how annoyingly heavy it was.

YESSSS. I did. :))))

And lepas tu, I brought it home for Christmas. Well, to be honest, fruit cakes aren't really my thing but I just brought it home for my family and etc. :)

Tapi, today mama brought my cake to work and shared it among her co-workers and stuff.

And all of them told her that it was delicious! :D

Two of them, even asked mama whether I could bake the similar cake, for them cause they loved it :')

And they were even willing to pay for it.

Sumpah gila happy ahhhhh. :)
Well, its not really the money, but its sweet how people appreciate these little things.

Anyways, I was lying on bed yesterday, and there were so much ideas running through my head and I think I'm going a tad bit crazzzzy. Hehe yeah. :)

I have a crazy idea.
I was thinking that I'm going to open up my very own macaron and meringue shop! :)

Well, I'm only sixteen, so that is so not possible. Heheh.

But, I'm going to teach mama and papa how to make these babies once I grab a hold, of mastering the recipe! :) and open up a shop somewhere in KL.

Hire some workers, etc?

I was thinking of calling it, Le Macaron Express?

What do you think?! :)

Any ideas?!

Ps : Give me, around 3 to 4 years maybe?

2011-12-27T21:22:00.002+08:00

I'm so excited, for my macaron classes! :)
Well, are you?

2011-12-26T20:20:00.000+08:00

I had a nose bleed around an hour ago. and mama thought that I was going to dieeeeeeeeee.
Hahahahahahhahah so funnny. Hmm, I look so pale, and I'm tired. Goodnight.

sigh.

2011-12-26T14:06:00.001+08:00

I just realized that I'm going to get my driving license next year. Hewhewhew:)
Nah, not so much the driving, but I'm turning seventeen next year and I feel so old.

I have no intentions of growing up, and I'd rather just stay daddy's girl.

So manja, right?

Thats what everyone says. Hmpfth. Memang tak ah. :(

Ever since, I went to boarding school in perth for one whole year, and when I came home around 3 weeks ago, I seem to be so much closer with papa and mama. :)

Well, I don't really argue with mama anymore. Its so funny how everything seems to fall in place.

Well in a good way of course. :)

Maybe I'm just growing up and I'm getting older, so papa and mama kinda trusts me more and stuff.

And they're being so nice to me too. :(

Nowadays, mama lets me go shopping and she even told me that she'd get me a DSLR camera and I didn't have to save up for my polaroid if I didn't want to cause she'll get it for me.

How sweet is that right?

I mean, I feel so bad though. :S

And daddy jugak, out of nowhere poped the question of getting me a blackberry and paying for my macaron classes.

~~This isssss suppperb weirddddd.~~ :o

Can someone tell me, whats going on?

2011-12-26T01:25:00.001+08:00

I actually hated my video so much , that I even disliked it. K bye.
I'm having a massive headache tonight. goodnight.

xoxo.

2011-12-24T23:53:00.003+08:00

Its Christmas Eve, guys :)

What did you have planned tonight, guys? :)

Well, I didn't do much, but I guess I had a lovely christmas dinner with papa and mama. :)

So, who knew we'd come this far huh? Its been one year, down.

And its a new year again in around 6 days.

I miss bits and pieces of memories this year. It was such a lovely year and I can't wait for 2012, to be even better. :D

So, did I tell you that I did something ~~crazy~~ tonight?!

Well, yes I did and I feel so maluuuuuu. :/ cause I did a cover of a song. alone.

YES ALONEEEEE! :( and I messed up some parts . :/ and the worst part of it, is that I can't even sing.

But I did want to try it out. oh wells. :)

~~I finally had the gutts to do it. Heh~~

LAUGH ALL YOU WANT LOOOH. :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X3FUlzx0q6Q

BOOOOO.

2011-12-23T22:15:00.000+08:00

So, the weirdest ~~shizzz~~ happened to me tonight. And now I'm so terrified of living in my own home.

One minute, I feel as if someone's hiding in my closet and the other minute, I feel as if theres something under my bed.

So here I am, checking my closet and the dark spaces under my bed every 10 minutes just to make myself feel safe. Well, thats totally fine right?! Yesssss?! :(
I'm not crazy or delusional right?

I left my music on in my room, before going out for dinner with mama and papa and when I came back, there was no more music. It was paused at 0015 seconds. I mean, thats so creepy cause, my music is always on repeat, so yeah.

And the weirdest thing was when mama said that she left her door open and the lights on but when we came back the doors were closed and locked with the lights off.

Thats some serious ~~shizz~~ right?
And i'm not panicking for no reason rightttt? :O :(

Anyways, I'm getting a polaroid camera. Heheheheheheheheh :)
Well, lets just say I saved up!

I'm so excitedddd.

Finally. My world is starting to become down-upside. :)

I am happy.

I moustache you a question, you shave it for later .

2011-12-23T10:37:00.000+08:00

I miss prim. The night, before she left.
lets just conclude, that I miss the boarding house. :)

Its 10 o'clock in the morning and I'm nothing but stuffed, so I decided I'm going to do one cheesy post, since I haven't done one in ages! :)
So does anyone have any idea where their celebrating the new year?
Causee, I don't have anything specific in mind yet. Hehe.

I've been up and down like nobody's business and I'm tired.
Oh so very tired.
Hehe.

I just can't bring myself to do a proper post, maybe another day.
Have a great day ahead guys! :)

2011-12-20T22:52:00.000+08:00

I'm so exhausted, that I may just fall asleep on my keyboards.
Hehe, I've to get up early tomorrow because I'm taking nicole to work and I'm just going to laze around the mall from 10am till 7pm.
Maybe do a movie or something. Yes, alone. :(

I know no one reads my blog, buttttt..
Would anyone like to meet up?!

2011-12-19T21:54:00.002+08:00

I think I'm having a fever because I really don't feel well :(
My head feels heavy and I'm feeling so sick to the pit of my stomach. I think its cause I've been sleeping late lately.

I hope I get better.

2011-12-19T01:11:00.002+08:00

Can i just state, that I'm feeling really really really sick to the pit of my stomach?

Goodnight.

I attended a wedding dinner tonight. I love weddings! I know it sounds all so cheesy but ah whatever.
May the couple have a happily ever after! :)

I decided that for my wedding, I'm going to have the theme as, white and purple. Heh. Only if, my future husband's fine with it :P

Just saying hi, because I'm a bored freak.

2011-12-18T00:04:00.000+08:00

2011-12-17T01:58:00.001+08:00

About half an hour ago, I was freaking out because I thought I misplaced by necklace. Oh, stupid me.

I must have accidentally dropped it into one of my jewelry boxes this morning, when I was going to wear it but got distracted because I was deciding which cardigan I wanted to wear.

So, today I went out with shakey and nicole and we watched Alvin And The Chipmunks.
And they're super adorable. Nak cubittttt. Ish. :(
Especially Theodore. <3

After that, we walked around a little bit, tried on some stuff etc. :)

Not to mention, topshop is on sale right now, but I just can't afford those stufff anymore. Its so expensive. Even though, they're having 50% off sale. :(

Then, played around with shakey's polaroid and I got some pictures offf her. Argh. <3

Then ended the day with some sushi for dinner and then lazer tag with strangers.

We LOST. Oh well.

I'm so happy today:)

K bye. Tak larat nak blog. bye. :*

2011-12-15T23:39:00.000+08:00

Because I love my stockings so much, I'm going to post this photo up. :)

K bye. x

.

2011-12-14T22:43:00.001+08:00

A few years ago, some people made my life a living hell. I didn't enjoy my first few years of high school, a single bit. Girls who thought that they were so superior just because they were rich and prettier than me, thought that they could just push me around, like nobody's business. I couldn't care less, even though my confidence just fell straight down the drain, since that moment of time. But I didn't let it get to me, too much because, even though I was a part of their so called "joke", I ignored it, and it wasn't that bad and then finally it just stopped.

I had people say nasty things about me, look at me differently and I was always a part of their stupid joke. Well, I was a joke. And it was all because, a group of girls just wanted to be mean. Its just like gossip girl.You shouldn't mess with the wrong kind, cause it'll start a whole bunch of drama.

Do you know what the worst thing was?
The fact that, I actually looked up to them.

They said so many mean things about me, looked at me like a piece dump. But to be honest, I couldn't give a shit. I didn't really care.

But when I sit down and think, why would people want to hurt me so bad, it hurts. It really does. I'm not even that big of a person.

Its over now.
So, cheers to being strong!

2011-12-14T16:24:00.000+08:00

I've been delaying baking my macarons lately. But, I'm finally doing it tomorrow. :)

Well, we'll just see how it goes.

Back from seremban

2011-12-14T02:01:00.001+08:00

I looked into my grandmother's eyes today and I saw pain.
All I wanted to do is just hold her hands and tell her that everything was going to be okay and just pray.
But I didn't.
Instead, I chose to sit there and watch her, in pain.

Take 10.

2011-12-10T23:50:00.000+08:00

Because tonight, i'm all alone.

2011-12-10T00:44:00.001+08:00

Click on ze image to enlarge.
I know this is kind of rude to post. but i just thought it was pretty funny. Heheh.

2011-12-08T19:41:00.002+08:00

I've come to a conclusion that ~~i'm pregnant~~.

My body feeds like nobody's business. I have a baby in my belly! :(
No wonder I'm so buncit.

SPRINK, SPRONK, SPRRROFF. :)

2011-12-08T00:35:00.003+08:00

I keep hearing knocks on my door and its really creeping me out. Maybe its just me, imagining things.

~~I don't feel safe.~~

Anyways, I'm completely broke right now. I don't have money. The worst thing was that $500 was stolen from me and I was actually saving up money to buy a DSLR Camera, which makes me kind of upset because I have to start all over again. Oh how much I wish I could curse you all over right now, but I won't, because your not worth it. Karma will hit you back.

Well someday, one day. Hmpfth.

I guess on the bright side, maybe every bad thing, comes with something good. :)
So, I've been acting like a bumm lately. Everyday I just FEEEED.

Like a vampire.

Nothing else. Its so embarrassing to tell you truth. I wake up, lepass tu makan, then sleep then continue my normal routine again and again.
Maybe I'm a human vampire, where I only feed on food and nothing else :o

I need to exercise. I'll start tomorrow. :)

Theres just so much FATS consumed in my body. :(
Even mama thinks so too.

--------------- End. Part 1 -----------------

I hate tossing and turning on my bed for hours and thinking perpetually, what a failure I am at falling asleep.

I've been away from Perth for around 5 days and I really miss it over there. I miss the boarding house, friends, people, teachers, weather, etc. Well, don't get me wrong, its not that I don't have friends here, I do. :D But you know, over the past year, I've created such tight bonds with people that I never thought that I would get close with. I mean, we all live under the same roof every day, so you practically see each other every day, and sometimes you get completely sick of it, but I swear its the best thing that feeling you'll ever have because you've always have friends to get you by.

So to all boarders out there, all around the world, do cherish this because its going to be one of the things you would really miss when you leave high school or whatsoever. :)

From having pillow fights, skipping dinner, wagging classes (WHOOPS. I think this is too public), running around and dancing like an idiot in your underwear, flashing each other just on purpose, raping each other in public and on bed etc.
Ugh. Best memories ever. <3

Especially running to the train station when you know your late and then, realizing that you missed the train and then coming back half an hour late to boarding and getting rubbish duty.

Haha. Oh wells. :)

2011-12-06T23:55:00.000+08:00

I'm currently listening to She Makes Dirty Words Sound Pretty by Pierce The Veil (Y)
Hehe. Hmm, anyways I'm so sleepy I think that my eyes are bengkak dah :o Sakit.

Guess what I wore all day?

A tee and just shorts. Super comfortable. Hegegeggegehehe. :)

2011-12-06T00:27:00.001+08:00

I feel the need of writing something in my blog but I've been staring at this blank page for a loooong time.
Im so hungry. I feel like having KFC right now.

Cheesy Wedges.

I think I'm such a fattie.
Mama just called me fatttt todayy. hmpfth.

And I'm sleepy but I can't sleep.
Nightmares have been haunting me these past few nights.

2011-12-03T05:19:00.000+08:00

I'm just about to fall asleep on my keyboards right now.

I'm so sleepy that I actually wobble when I walk and everyone who walks past me in the airport thinks I'm a little crazy. :3

Minutes to departure : 32 minutes

ps : I'm using the airport computers. free wifi :P

2011-12-03T00:47:00.002+08:00

I'm super annoyed right now.

I hate it. I just really really hate it when I'm so unappreciated especially by one of your family members.

I know hate is a strong word. so I'll just use dislike.

you. always do this to me.

Oh how much I would love to ~~cuss~~ right now, but I'd prefer not to.
Because I have a sense of control, unlike you.

Sitting down on the floor, eating meringues.

2011-11-29T20:57:00.003+08:00

#LIKE A BOSS.

2011-11-28T20:25:00.000+08:00

I'm super frustrated right now. I smell someone making mee-goreng in the kitchen. It smells yummy.
Its tempting me and I'm trying my best not to get out of my chair. Heheh.

Just thought, I should let my blog know that.
Heheh.

Your so hypnotizing.

2011-11-28T17:31:00.000+08:00

I'm so excited for food class tomorrow. We're finally decorating our christmas cakes tomorrow.
Hehehe, and yes I know it sounds like a crazy idea but I'm planning to bring it back to Malaysia and save it for Christmas.

So, we baked the cake and iced in last week in class, and it took two hours to ice it.
So, it was a lot of work. k. Just saying.

And since this week is the last week, we're decorating it tomorrow and we'll be taking it home. Hehe i'm so excited that I wish I could put up a picture here right now. But my broadband has been ~~stuffing up~~ on me, so I can't use it.Ah whatever.

I'll post pictures when this saturday when I'm back home.

Hehehehehehegegege. Dah, I've no idea what to blog about dah.
When I do think of something to write, I'll come back.

Till then. Byeeeee! :)

2011-11-28T17:18:00.001+08:00

<3 :*

2011-11-27T20:44:00.001+08:00

Its been a while since i've touched my blog. I've been busy and I miss writing.

Since my last post, I've been packing up my whole room and its taking forever.
I've been neglecting everything. It sounds funny but I don't know, really.

Oooh. But the good news! :)
I found both my slippers that were missing in term one. Heheh :*
Mama came over on Saturday to help me pack and signed me and joanna out today and we went shopping at Harbour Town and ended our day with a lovely meal at Heavenly Plate.

I admit that, I may not get along pretty well with mama, but I still love her.
She's everything to me.

Hmpfth. Anyways, 4 more nights in Perth. Oh how I would love to suffer, when I'm back in KL.
I'll be caught up in my sweet misery . :)

genuinely me.

2011-11-23T10:54:00.002+08:00

I think that its been a pretty decent week. Finals are over and I've finally got to have a mind of my own to sit back and relax. Or maybe enjoy the last remaining days of my life at St Hilda's with my closest friends. Its been such a journey for me, back and forth. Oh I am going to miss this.

Its been a battle throughout but what can I say? Its been amazing and I am still alive. I'm finally crawling out of my own shell. (I don't even know if such a phrase exists but ~~ah whatever~~, I like it. Don't you?)

Yes, that is right. I am still alive!

So here I am going to elaborate on ~~what the hell's~~ been happening. It may get quite boring I might say so do not read any further if your getting bored. Seriously, just don't.

-----There we go again -----

1. I have been working my guttts out to get back into shape and be as flexible as I ever was, once

2. I've been working on my guitar chords of California King Bed. Yes. I'm still learning. Well bit by bit.

3. I lost my prince charming. But don't fret. I'm alright

4. I'm excited to get my new oven and bake my macarons as soon as I get back home!
(I do have an oven, but its not big enough, so mama promised that she'll get me one as soon as I get back. She's the best, ~~don't you think?~~ I can't believe I even asked you that. Of course she is. Hehe. )

5. I love Katy Perry.

---------- Don't read this section if its just going to bore you -----------
(Got this style of writing of a friend's blog!)

1. I have been working my guttts out to get back into shape and be as flexible as I ever was, once.

So, you guys do know that i'm going back to figure skating right?

You have no idea how unbelievably excited I am for this. I absolutely love it. Well, I don't know how I'm going to cope with so many things but I hope it'll be all worth it. Even if you don't like me doing any of these things, at least support me in this, because its what I love doing. It makes me feel happy.

The main point is. You may think that I look like this completely un-realistic girl caught up in this own world of mine thinking that I'm the ~~best skater~~ at the rink. But truth to be told, I'm not. At least, I don't try to be. I would call myself average in this sport. I do know how to do some certain tricks on ice and some, I don't.

You have no idea how accomplished I feel when I finally get to perfect my spins or jumps. It is such a rewarding feeling to know that you have finally accomplished something and your moving forward.

Thats unless, my coach tells me that I'm not focusing.
Which, will not happen again :p

You have no idea how much energy it has drained out of me. But all this exhaustion is going to bring out the best in me. Coz with every bit of energy I put into this, its going to bring out the best in my performance on ice.

Nope, I am not gonna elaborate too much on this one, cos well, you'll be hearing a lot more of this in the future.

2. I've been working on my guitar chords of California King Bed. Yes. I'm still learning. Well bit by bit.

I'm very sure that I do not own a guitar of my own but i've been practicing. Hehe, on Pie and Joanna's guitar. I've only started learning the intro of the song, and hopefully if we do have the time, I hope I can finish the whole song by the end of term 4, which is not too far away from now.

Well, at least if I never ever touch a guitar in Malaysia, for the rest of my life, since I don't have one, at least I've learn to play one song and that would have been good enough for me.

Ps : I need to start taping my fingers. Sakittt.

3. I lost my prince charming.

I'm not going to say I lost him. I'm gonna say I lost grip on him.
To say I lost him, he'll say he was never mine.

But yeah, I did have some massive, crazy good times with him. He's a great guy. Im not afraid to admit that I cried for a while but then Celine just hugged me so tightly and started bringing me back to life again. Now that girl. She gives the best, fuzziest hugs ever.

We're friends now, which is good :p
Honestly I'm surprised that I handled, this pretty well. I thought I would have been more broken that I thought I would be. I thought I'd have sleepless nights. All my friends did think so too, after it ended terribly after my first. I guess, they were pretty much shocked. Though, I wouldn't say I never had sleepless nights or ever felt broken.

I'm not gonna say fairytales don't happen. They did in my world. But of course, every movie has to end somewhere right?

I still care for him though. And he should know that I still wanna be there for him if whatever.

4. I'm excited to get my new oven and bake my macarons as soon as I get back home!

I'm so unbelievably excited for this.
I was thinking of posting my macarons to all my friends in Malaysia and ask them to give me feedback once its a success. Hehe. What do you guys think? It might take a while, though. Coz apparently, you need to try them a couple of times before it actually becomes perfect. And i don't care if its going to be a complete fail the first time I try baking them, cause I can always try again right?

So, watch me. I will get there I promise.

5. I love Katy Perry
Have you guys seen her new video? She's so pretty. :')
Go check it out. The One That Got Away. This one. You don't want to miss out on.

-----End-----
Whoah. That was a long post. I took an hour to do this.
I am not ashamed
xx

2011-11-22T20:00:00.000+08:00

I'm dropping biology and taking french instead.

Kudos. :*

2011-11-21T21:34:00.000+08:00

Hehe hi nicole. I miss you so much, that I was looking through our pictures through photo booth.

And our silly videos we used to take during geography and bm classes over 2 years ago.
Hehe. I miss you.

I wish I could call you but your at work and you don't finish until ten and I am out of credit so please be expecting a call at around 11-ish tomorrow or wednesday night.

I read your blog, and I hope you'll pull through.

I'm not going to make you leave. cause i'm cooooming home :*

I'm signing off now. Hehe buh bye! :)
Till then. Sloppy kisses.

warmth

2011-11-20T12:06:00.004+08:00

I woke up at exactly 11.17am today. Heh. I've just this urge to lay in bed the whole day cause i can't be bothered to do anything at all. Yes. Nothing at all would be quite nice. I watched breaking dawn yesterday with Sunny and the advertisements took so long that we actually sat in our seats feeling so depressed until the movie started. Not even halfway through the advertisements, we've already finished half a box of our popcorn. Fyi, the advertisemnents took like half an hour. YES. 30 bragging minutes. Plus, the movie wasn't worth watching. Well, don't get me wrong, it was okay. I liked some parts of it and it was not the worst movie ever but it was not exactly the best either.

This morning I'm in the ranting mood. Good idea to click the x button and shut the page.

Why does it bother me so much?

We know more than we think.
At the same time we know less than we think.

Do you want to know that?

The things we want to know, we'll never know.
The things we don't have to know, somehow we'll know.

SO yeah. Summary of it is that I'm thinking about a guy whose far, far away and not thinking about me but just made an impact on a few things that he did. Guy's always leave me hanging. Damn youu.

Its lunch. Cheesy toast.Oh God, I feel so fat.

sore

2011-11-19T16:23:00.005+08:00

Its that moment when you feel your heart beat pulsing through your veins and it won't stop.

Its so heavy in your chest. Its deep

You grip your pillows and your sheets so tightly just as if, your about to die in pain.

It hurts. but yet, you still go on.

It feels as if you want to bite on something so hard, not worrying whether your teeth breaks into pieces

You want to bite onto your own flesh so hard.

You want to scream.

You need to relieve your pain onto something else.

Pink or Purple macarons?

2011-11-18T19:48:00.002+08:00

these are beautiful aren't they?

Hehe, I'm sorry if I'm actually spamming all my sites with macarons and all.
So, I was on tumblr today and I came across a few pictures of these macarons and they all look so yummy.
I couldn't help it but steal all the pictures I found from tumblr and post it all up on my blog. :)

I'm going to try make these when I go back home nanti. :)
Hehegegeh.

It makes me feel super jealous that some of my friends over here, knows how to make them! :(
So yeah, this is the first thing i'm going to attempt doing when I go back to malaysia.

Ahh I can't decide. They all look so pretty.

Especially annatasha's macarons! She inspires me. (Y)

So, I was thinking raspberry macarons or maybe green tea macarons.

What do you guys think? :)

K. I don't think anyone actually reads my blog, so I don't expect anyone to reply me buttttt, I'm going to make my first attempt at pink and purple coloured macarons since its my favourite colours.

Hehegehehe.

And when its a successs, then I'm going to attempt making heart-shaped macarons.

What say you? :)

2011-11-17T19:45:00.000+08:00

One day, when I do have time to learn how to play the guitar, I will make a cover of this song.

One day.

2011-11-13T19:08:00.000+08:00

Dinner was super delicious today. :)
We had lamb with gravy + cheesy baked cauliflower. Hehe sedaaaaap. :)
I'm going to miss these kinds of food, when I go back to Malaysia dahhh.
Two more weeks then I'll be home dah :)

Its been a short term.

But its been quite a while. Hmm.

I really do hope it rains a little bit more when I'm back because I love rain.

But minus the thunderstorms pleaseeee?

I find it super funny that I don't know what to write in here :(

I've Biology on Tuesday btw :(
And sumpah, malas nak study :'(

Should I study guyyyys? :9 Haha, maybe not.

I'm still in high schoool kot. still ade masa to have funnnnnn :P

Heghehe. I'll take my chances. :)

I studied so hard for the first week btw :S

2011-11-13T18:53:00.000+08:00

I kinda like this quiet.

Its peaceful.

Do you?

You know what I wish I could do right now?

I wish I could lay on the beach right now and close my eyes.
Maybe sleep a little, while the sun's out.
And then wake up when the sun is setting.

I wish I could hear the sound of the waves crashing into each other, birds chirping.
The sound of nature.

Now, that. I like :)

No one, but myself.

The whole beach, to myself.

2011-11-12T21:34:00.000+08:00

Tae-Seok. <3

2011-11-12T21:20:00.002+08:00

I was you tubing some of the korean movies on you tube and I didn't realize that I used to watch so many korean movies when I was younger. :)
I forgot all of them actually tapii, I came across this korean drama called "Autumn In My Heart".

So I clicked on it, cause it sounded super familiar.

I realized I used to love this movie so much.

It kinda bring back memories to me. Heheh. :)
Guys go watch it pleaseeeee, from episode 1 because trust me, you wouldn't regret it.

Haha, tapi sedihhhhh ah :(

It makes me feel so sad. But it was worth it. Haha. :)

Well its abouuuuuut a girl and a boy who are in love, but there were some complications in between and stuff. lepas tu, she got leukemia, and she passed away. and he got hit by a car too cause he was supppper sad.
And both of them passed away.

Long story short. Want to know more?
Google it. :(

And I love the song.

And Joon-Seo and Tae-Seok are so cute jugak.
They were both fighting for the same girl anyway but she picked Joon-Seo
But if I had to choose between one of them, I would pick Joon-Seo.
Tapii, Tae-Seok is cuter kot. >:(
I nak bothhhh. Hehehehehheeh :P

Tapi one day, I want a guy like Joon-Seo to love me like that jugakkkkkkkkk.

Ah, I'm so complicated, that your super confused what I'm talking about right?

Laaaa. :(
I'm going to watch this tonight, again.
Heheh. k. biology will have to wait kot. :P

sjhdjhasdjhasjdhjashdjsd/

2011-11-12T16:05:00.000+08:00

Natalie Merchant - Kind and Generous (cover)

Skip to 40 seconds and start.

I think she has an amazing voice. :D

?

2011-11-10T22:20:00.001+08:00

11.11.2011 :)
Hehe, well everyone's super hyped out about ittt.
Are you? Haha tak tahuuu pun. :)

I don't understand why I even bother blogging, when in reality, no one actually reads my blog.
I remembered the era, where everyone was so into blogging but now, no one hardly even touches their blog.

Oh, did I tell you?
I had a nightmare yesterday.

Well, I wouldn't really call it a nightmare, it wasn't scary.

But its my fears, coming to a reality kinda thing.

And its the meanest thing ever.

I never expected to have dreams like this.
I don't like what I picture in my head right now.

Every thing that happened in my dreams last night, keeps re-playing in my head.

And i hate it.

Because it felt real.

It was just as if, I was really in my dreams, in person, and just standing at the scene seeing everything thats happening.

But the only thing is I'm invisible.

They can't see me at all but I can.

Honey Bee- Zee Avi #Nowplaying

2011-11-09T22:24:00.000+08:00

You know whats funny?
Well not funny really. Its sad. But I’ll definitely cherish all the memories that I’ve ever had in this place.

Its the good memories that keep us alive, right?
I will never forget anything about this place. Heheh. :)
It just makes me happy thinking about it, even though it could all sum up to being suckish sometimes.

I’ve had the best memories over summer and I’ve had my fair share of awfully nasty memories too, but i guess its all part of life.

There are days when I go to bed with a wide smile on my face and there are the other days where I would find my eyes super teary at night.

Its scary, right? Heheh.

But its okay, i guess. Cause friends always make it better for you. :)
Even if I’m having a real trashy day, I always end up getting squishy hugs from my peers. :)

Sometimes, you even get hit by the BOOOB. pfth. eew.

Haha. :)

But now, when I’m going back next year, whose going to give me hugs at night, when I feel sad?

No one will, well except my pillows.

Oh well :(

And I’m going to have breakfast alonneeeeeee, now. HMPFTH. >:(
Well, Welcome to to the story of my sad sad life.
I’m a loner, and I don’t have any friends. :P

I’ll visit you guys next year. I promise.

Plus i’ve bought tickets already, so i’ll be seeing you guys soon. :(
I’m going to miss you so much, I swear.

Hmmm.

22 days till home.

woof.

2011-11-06T16:51:00.001+08:00

K. So 10 minutes before dinner :)
I hope its something yummy. *fingers crossed.
Hehe. oh boy. I've been studying all day since 10am this morning, then took a slight break at 1pm :)
Then studied till now. I'm so tired. :(

Dah lah, I haven't started studying my polictics and law booklet and history booklet.
Sumpah nak nangis. No time. :(

I've been focusing more on my sciences, maths, english, economics and french lately. :(
Sigh. so much to do, so little time!

So, when I'm kinda tired and frustrated about these little things, I automatically tune into Katy Perry's songs.
You know what?
Her songs are amazing.
She continues to inspire me.

One of my favourites right now is "The One That Got Away"

Lyrics :

Summer after high school when we first met

We make out in your Mustang to Radio head

And on my 18th birthday we got that chain tattoos

Used to steal your parents' liquor and climb to the roof

Talk about our future like we had a clue

Never plan that one day I'd be losing you

And in another life I would be your girl

We keep all our promises, be us against the world

And in other life I would make you stay

So I don't have to say you were the one that got away

The one that got away

I was dreaming you were my Johnny Cash

Never one, we got the other, we made a pact

Sometimes when I miss you, I put those records on, whoa

Someone said you had your tattoo removed

Saw you downtown singing the blues

It's time to face the music, I'm longer your muse

And in another life I would be your girl

We keep all our promises, be us against the world

And in another life, I would make you stay

So I don't have to say you were the one that got away

The one that got away

The one, the one, the one

The one that got away

All these money can't buy me a time machine, no

Can't replace you with a million rings, no

I should've told you what you meant to me, whoa

'Cause now I pay the price

In another life I would be your girl

We keep all our promises, be us against the world

And in another life, I would make you stay

So I don't have to say you were the one that got away

The one that got away

The one, the one, the one, the one

And in another life I would make you stay

So I don't have to say you were the one that got away

The one that got away

2011-11-06T13:16:00.000+08:00

hehe hi guys. Before I was watching these little video clips from you tube.
Well, the movies where I used to watch when I was a little kid.

K. So this one. Was particularly my favourite.
Teletubbies and Elmo's World. :)

Hehe.
Watch this.
So comeeelll :(

Its just me and my dreams.

2011-11-05T22:51:00.000+08:00

I've had this in my thoughts for over a year and a half now.

And, I'm going to do it no matter what.
Just you see.

Its my passion. I want to compete, like I used to. Thats final.
I seriously don't know how I'm going to get there, but I do know I want to do it.
Because I love it.

I want to compete and keep learning new stunts.
I want to learn more jumps and spins.

The only jumps I've learnt so far are waltz jump, salchow jump, toe loop jump and ballet jump.

I don't care, if my knee's are going to get in the way or anything.
I'm fine.

I'll get there.

So. Watch me.

GEE GEE GEE GEE GEE.

2011-11-05T21:15:00.000+08:00

Heheh. Hey guys :)
I'm taking a slight break from studying kot. Resuming in five minutes.

So, i do not know what to blog aboutttttt :)

Oh, I bought a dress today! :)
K. Not spending after buying ze dress anymore :P

Hehe. k bye.

Sloppy kisses? :*

Ps : If you wonder whats the title about, me and joanna were dancing like idiots and humming that song just 5 minutes ago. Probably got Pie and ebony super annoyed cuz they were studying not too far away :P Hehe.

plurb

2011-11-04T23:09:00.006+08:00

"Everything you want so let me get up there

I'm the baddest baby in the atmosphere.Tell me what you want so we can do just what you like"

I swear if I don't get this song out of my head, i'm going to scream the lyrics out.

Hehe well nah. unlikely. :P

I sangat, "THE SHY". :P

Well, what can I say right? I'm sort of a shy person.

Haha.
Well not unless you get to know me, better :)

Anyways, k so going back to malaysia in a few weeks time and I'm super excited. :)
Well, maybe for some parts I guess.
Papa says I can't go back to figure skating because of my knee problems which will come back, once I start skating, blah blah blahh.

Hmm. It makes me supppper frustrated.

Going to persuade daddy to still let me go on with classes! :)

I was sleepy today cause I slept late semalam, so I guess I'm going to sleep after this post cauuuse, my body is dreading sleep :)
I feel as if I'm going to sleep with a big smile on my face tonight. :D

Heheh. So here's the gist. This is what happened during dinner tonight.

I met sophia!:) She's in pre-school. I think pre-kindergarten.

Hehe she's the cutest little angel ever.
I swear, If I could, I would actually kidnap her and bring her back home, and make her mine. :(
That sounds super creepy but ah well, shes super adorable.

So,

*Walking to the buffet counter to get dinner with prim etc:)
Then, I saw father Toby and sophia. (his daughter)

Sarah: *Waves at sophiaa, excitedlyy. Hiii, remember me?

Sophia : *runs towards me and gives me a big, fuzzy hug and a big wide smile.
hiiiiii sarah :D

Ps : she's tiny and her height only reaches my hips! well, maybe slightly lower than my hips.

Sarah : *hugss back, smiles and walk over to get my foood!

Sophia : *Pulls her daddy over.
Daddy! shes one of my favourite girls in the boarding house!

(ps: she said this in the cutest way, any little girl could ever say itttt)

K, so after that. Had dinner and all and before I left to go back into the boarding houseee.

Sarah: Bye sophie! *wavesss, from a distance.

Sophie (Still at the dining table, having dinner with her daddy) : *gets off her seat, ran towards me and gave me a hugggg :') and walked back to her table.

Then as I was walking out of the door. She ran towards me and gave me another hug.

And cause she was super small and tiny, her height was only till my hips, and she gave my belly a kiss!

Which I think was so cute! :(

Hmpfth. Adorable sangat. :)
Sleeping with a smile on my face tonight :)

I ain't trying to hurt chuu.

2011-11-03T22:02:00.000+08:00

I look like a mess. Can you see my eyebags?
Pfft, dislikeeeeeeee!

I'm such a specky. I don't like it. So, never call me a specky.

Cuz. I will kill you.

Plus, the way I smile, is so distorted.
Haha. Oh well.

I've been dreading sleep actually.
But its okay. cauuuse. The Fight Must Go On (Y)

Anyways, life has been stressful. Hehe yes, oh but I actually like it.
Although, I tend to be kinda grumpy, so I guess you get to see the other side of me, which is pretty scary, I must say :P heheh

So, it rained the whole day today. Well, I love rain.

But I really hate running around the school compound to get to classes.

Oh, and hi celine :)
Thanks for the post. Haha, it was really sweet of you :D

Thank you so much! :) I'll text youuuuu. plus, if you need anything text me kay?
I'm on whatsapp 24/7 :*

2011-11-03T10:30:00.000+08:00

Hehe hey guys, I'm in career ed class right now. :)

I'm just hungry. so i'm just going to list a few things that I would love to eat right now :
Pizza bake, Mac&Cheese, Mashes potatoes, Ice cream, Hot chocolate fudge brownies.

And the list goes on.....

2011-11-02T22:06:00.000+08:00

Guess what I'm tuning into tonight?

All my heart - Sleeping With Sirens.

K. Call me lovey dovey or whatever, but haha :)

Hmm. 4 weeks till home. What will I make out of my life?

#stupidme

2011-11-01T21:50:00.000+08:00

I fought with Papa, over the phone today.

I don't like fighting with Papa.

It makes me sad.

Its my fault. I have a temper.

Papa says, I'm still acting like a five year old kid and he marah me jugak.
It makes me sad.

Adding on, I didn't have a great day today.

I was tired and sleepy.

And I feel stupid for some sort of reason.

Why can't I get those formulas into my head?
I'm forgetting everything.

And I just can't seem to do any of my math revisions sheet questions. most of it.

Am i stupid?

I feel like the most brainless person on earth.

Im just plain stupid.

Its sad.
It makes me really sad.

I just want to crawl up into a ball and sleep.
I wish I was no where, but home.

It feels as if everything around me, just hates me.

2011-10-31T22:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Halloween Guys. :)
Heheheheheh, If I was back home right now, I would be knocking every doorstep asking for sweets!
Well, yes. I am still a five year old kid, fyi. :D

And I am not ashamed to tell the whole wide world :)

I didn't know that I would be super tired today.
I find myself so sleepy in school recently.
And I think its cause, I sleep late, cause I'm studying :(

Hmm. I'm going to switch on the lights at 11pm and start studying later.
Cause its lights out now. Hmpfth. :(

I had so much homework today. Well, its sort of like revision sheets. hmpfth.

But I need to studyyy and memorize my french oral questions :(

I swear I'm going to go crazy.
I sound like a nerd-frekish-freak right?

Hmm sorry :(

I can't seem to help myself.

Anyways, we had a normal halloween dinner tonight and I managed to get some pictures that I simply adore. (Y)
Hehehehe, everyone looked so spooky tonight with their dressing up and stuff.
Well me?
What did I wear?

Hahaha nothing. I just wore a casual dresssssssss. :)
Cause I didnt have anything to wear.
So, I took photographs for some people in the boarding house. :)
Uploading some of the pictures on facebook tonight. :)

Although, I couldnt get much photos of me and my friends tonight :( causeeeeeee, yeah I was practically taking photographs for my friends kot.
Hmm :(
I want a photographer of my own.

2011-10-30T22:23:00.000+08:00

# Fact 5 - I sing in the shower.

Sometimes. embaressing. but whateverrrr :*

Goodbye. week 2.

2011-10-30T22:04:00.000+08:00

Goodbye Week 2.

I won't see you ever, in my life again. :)

I'm so over you.
Holidays have been ever so boring. Well long-weekend holidays always are.

As funny or awkward as it seeeems, I really want to go back to schooool :(
Well, school tomorrow. so yeah :')

Hehehehe, I just wanna get finals over with. :)
Then after that, I could enjoy every possible time I have on planet earth until year 11.

Hmm, though after finals, we start doing year 11 work.

Ah whatever.

Chemisty, Biology, Physics, English, Mathematics, French and Photography.
Do you think its alright? :)
Or should I drop physics? Its killing me bit by bit, when I see what I'm going to learn in year 11.

It looks super hardddddddd :(

Anyways, lets talk about my lazy sunday afternoon.

I didn't like it quite a fair bit .

A spider jumped on me today and me and prim were screaming like an idiot. -.- for freaking 5 minutes.

That is a long time btw -.- to be screaming like an idiooot.

After that incident, I felt as if my body was filled with tiny spiders crawling all around my body the whole freaking day :'(

But thank god, its all over now. :)

Heheh. anyways, this week is going to be pretty intense.

Well except for tomorrow i guess. :)
Cauuuuuse, we have a Halloween Dinner tomorrow, and that means more of photographs to be taken!
WOO HOOO! :)

Bring it on. :')

You do not scare me.

2011-10-30T13:48:00.002+08:00

This song. Is currently, the ringtone to my cellphone. :')
So, guysss.
Call me? ;)

2011-10-29T17:06:00.000+08:00

Hehe hello beautifuls.

Well anyone, whose reading my blog, not spamming my inbox. >:(
I'm super duper sleepy.

I'm sixteen. I should be out having fun, sneaking out, etc but yet i'm in boarding, studying.
Well, cauuuse I have finals soon and I can't wait to get it over with.

Joanna has hid my phone again, for the second time, and I can't find it :(
Oh well. pfth. Ish. tsk tsk.

I've been studying with joanna today since 11pm till now. I think i'm just crazy.
I'm going to go take a nap. :(

Hmpfth. I'm coming home in 4 weeks. K, this is so not fun anymore.
Its going to be "Goodbye Perth for the next few years of my life"
But I'll definitely visit you guys for sure. :D

I've got tickets to visit you guys next year! :)

Hehehehehehe, and joanna and me were talking about how we're going to write letters to each other.
Super cheesy but yeah :')

I'm going to miss boarding.
It tends to make me smile. :)
Waking up in the early mornings, when the first thing you see is your friends, having breakfast with them etc:)
Socials and going out to the movies together.
Ice skating during saturday nights!
Stalking boys. Hahahahahahahagagaghahahaha. <- Well, that would have to be celine. Heheh.
The FOOOOOOOOD. :(

Im going to miss this terribly.

Oh well, what to do. :(

I'm going to sleep. take a slight nap. :)
I feel cold, really cold lately.
I'm hoping I won't catch a fever :( Heheh, goodnight guys :*

2011-10-28T22:46:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I feel happy

Sometimes, I feel sad
Sometimes, I feel annoyed
Sometimes, I feel stupid
Sometimes, I feel angry
Sometimes, I feel surprised
Sometimes, I feel confused
Sometimes I feel home-sick
Sometimes I feel as if, I don't know myself.

Sometimes, I feel like I'm always trying to please people.

The fact is. I'm going to please, no one but myself from now on.

Bye.

2011-10-27T22:20:00.002+08:00

Hey guys, I've been watching Ps : I love you, on my macbook :)

Heheheh.
Well, I've watched it a couple of times already.
But ebony was giving her movie out using the USB, so I was thinking, why not right?

I could use a movie, with nights like these. :)

It would make it all better, with, Ben & Jerry's ice cream. Heheh.

Anyways, I havent touched my books and I need to :(
Went for lunch today, and got so caught up with a little bit of shopping, plus I'm going to adventure world tomorrow.
Water slides and roller coasters. Hmm.

I'm super exited.
But now, I feel like sleeping in tomorrow. Hahahahaha.

It feels like a long week-end and I've got so much facts to put into my head, by the end of next week.
I swear I might just cry.
When I'm stressed out or sleepy, I tend to be grumpy.
Oh well.

Such is life, right?

2011-10-26T22:25:00.000+08:00

Helloooooooo. I'm sleepy. :)

Oh well, Goodnight.

Sleep. My only, escape from reality.

2011-10-26T16:46:00.002+08:00

"Never go to bed mad. Stay up and fight."

2011-10-26T16:38:00.000+08:00

Hehe hello guys. :)

I tengah whats-app joanna right now. Hehe, super glad I downloaded mine. :)

Owh.

And I need to pee.

Reallyyyyy badlyyy.

But I'm super lazy to walk to the toilets. And its dark. so I'm scared of shadooows. :)

Hehe, call me a scared freak. ah whatever. :)

We had a Year 12 Farewell Dinner for the year 12s tonight and it was pretty cool. Hehe.

Took some pictures which I've been trying to upload for the year 12s in the past hour.

Its taking so long. But can't help it though.

Hmm and, tomorrow's last day of school this week. Meaning, i'm starting week 3 soon.

After this, I've only 4 weeks left in Perth.

Why does time fly?

Why won't it be nice to me, and stop for a moment, when I'm not looking?

K, hi. this was supposed to be posted last night. but my internet was crappy . ah well. :)

2011-10-24T23:11:00.000+08:00

I think everyone has their bad days.
Maybe today is just one of those days where you feel empty.
And it makes me sad that you feel that way.

Sometimes, you just got to be brave and go through these wild emotions. :)
Its a challenge, but you gotta try. :)

I've had my fair share of bad days. It was tough, believe me.
It was just a yucky feeling.

Everyone hates yucky feelings. Heheh. But yeah, it'll get better.
I guess, thats all you can hope for right now.
Have faith.
Because thats all you have right now. :)
Well, you have me too. :D
Don't be sad, or I'll give you sloppy kissessssssss tomorroww. Hahahahahahhaha. :P

Anyways, hows life been for me?
I've been busyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :(
And, I'm still trapped in this delusional world of mine.

2011-10-23T20:07:00.002+08:00

"Sarah seems to been streesing out alot for her studies. I dont like her when shes like this. Its liek shes a really big nerd. Sarah, calm the fark down. Your putting too much on yourself. "

Oh, thanks celine -.-
I just read your blooooooog. thx. k bye.

wanna study. bye.

Why does my head, hurt so bad?

2011-10-22T23:09:00.001+08:00

I wish I had a camera cable where I can transport all my photos into my laptop.
Hmpfth, I can't find it. :(

I wanna upload photos from my camera :(
But I don't have a freaking cable to start with.

So, I've been hogging my photo booth lately with all these crazy effects of mine.
Oh well.
Photo booth is my best friend.
What can I say?

Hmm. Danish tried to video call me on facebook yesterday night.
K. so I didn't know we could video call through facebook now.
Its superrrr cooool. :D

So, umm I've been studying the whole day I guess and I feel uber tired already.
When I'm tired, I feel super super pisssssifiedddddd.
Thats not wrong right?
But its just a warning, to you people, so that you stay away from me, when I'm going through these emotions.
After all, I'm a girl. I PMS. :) Its what I do a lot.

Now, thats my excuse.

And, I don't want to make any hasty decisions right now.
Its so cloudy in my head.
Its Blurred.
I need air.

2011-10-22T21:13:00.002+08:00

My hands, they're strong

But my knees were far too weak

To stand in your arms

Without falling to your feet

But there's a side to you

That I never knew, never knew.

All the things you'd say

They were never true, never true,

And the games you play

You would always win, always win.

2011-10-22T15:54:00.000+08:00

Hellooowh. :) Taking a break from revising.
This fits in to my top five.

2011-10-22T15:12:00.001+08:00

Don't you reckon she's spo pretty?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FHp2KgyQUFk&feature=related

We Found Love - Rihanna ft Calvin Harris

2011-10-22T11:23:00.001+08:00

Hehe. <3

No title.

2011-10-22T11:20:00.000+08:00

Called sharon, yesterday afternoon. Heheh
Need to exagerate on how I miss her super duper much. :)
She's having holidays right now. Ahhh. Lucky girl.
Heheh.

Anyways, I'm studying. Argh. I feel super lazy even to think about ittt.
And guess what I'm ordering for lunch guyyyys?
PIZZA, breadsticks and brownies.
Hehe, I'm going to order it online soon. :')

Haha, but seriously guys.
I'm sharing it with Pie and Ebony lateerrrr.
So, celiney, prim, joanna and holly are going to the city. :) hehe have fun guys!
Super pumped for ice skating tonight! :)

Follow my besties blog please?
http://idontknowwhatsoever.blogspot.com/

Its been a while, since i've been to the ice rink. i miss you sunway pyramid. :)

2011-10-20T22:36:00.001+08:00

You gave me the best memories.