I think your stuck.

Its one in the morning, and Im filling up my sleeping hours by just writing this blog post.
Just thought I'd give write a little something because I don't think I'll be able to make enough time for my blog after this, since I've got exams coming up. :p

But who knows. I may write everyday as well! :)
Depends though.

Out of a sudden, I don't feel as if I want to study as hard, or even touch any of my books this summer.

I'm really home-sick you know?
And yes, this is so not the time to do this, because its such an important year for me.
Well and next year too :(

And I dont even know if I'm going to do well next year because I'll be home for good, in college and i'd probably be going out everyday. Hehehehe. :)
And yes, save me.

I actually don't understand this whole idea of studying. I think its just plain-stupid.
I think, theres just so much more to life, than just studying you know?
Its not all about getting to the best universities in the world, or being a top student in your class or anything.
It dies off, eventually.
And I don't know about any of you, but to me, theres just so much more to life than those things.

I'm not saying, I wanna drop out of school or anything, but I can't study all the time right?
I can go crazy actually. And get more depressed and stressed out and all.
Its just so tiring, you know?
I have a life too.

And my life doesn't revolve all around books. I'm starting to freak out like a mad cow, though.

These insecurities and thoughts that I won't do well.
Or maybe my intentions of not even bothering to do well this year.

I don't know lah. Its so confusing.

Anyways, how have you guys been? :)
I've been really great, but i've been having classes almost everyday and I've been out almost everyday and i'm so exhausted to the max.
I need my energy booster, back. I fall asleep wherever I go, really.
In the car, on the sofa, at a friends place, in the cinemas :/
Plus I'm going out tomorrow with Naomi.

Its called Shopping Therapy. :)
Hahahahahahha. I need to release stress and :p
I reckon I'd be more tired, because I need to wake up early too! But i'm excited:)

Tonight, I went over to Shakey's place for a pool party and now my hair smells like smelly chlorine water. Got forced into the pool as usual. Heh heh. :)
But it was fun though. and I managed to get some red packets so I gotta do some saving up!
Well, I am, bit by bit.

I feel so home-sick at the moment. Daddy even took out the tv from my room and said he'll replace it with another one but still. my room feels so empty now. Even with my sofa gone.
Well my room feels so much bigger now, but everything is leaving its place one, by one!
Now, whats next?
Moving everything out of my room?
Move out? :(

Im in a really bad mood. Sigh.
Theres so much curse words going through my mind at the moment.
I want to stay here, but I can't. This is so shit.

After all, I'm a girl right?
I don't like being so far away from home.

It makes me sad and I don't like being far away from my family and friends.

Don't get me wrong though. You'll experience one of the best things in your life in boarding.
I mean sometimes its fun, sometimes it gets a little lonely too, right?

Don't you even understand that?

Its my last year, in St Hildas though. Daddy said, I might just leave after my exams too. :/
So probably around october or latest december lah. :(

Thats like nine months away. Thats such a long time. For me.

I'd be crying myself to sleep every night.
Why does God make it so hard for me?